A Trip Out West (Saturday's Dream)

I went to Seattle or San Francisco to visit my friend Teresa (who doesn't live on the west coast). She picked me up from the airport and told me she had a great apartment. The only problem with it was that she had to drive on the busiest freeway when she drove and that she hated that. We parked in her apartment parking lot and walked through a door and went into her apartment. It was a dorm-style room. She was living with 10 other people and the beds were all lined up next to each other. The "guest" bed was across from where she slept and it was about as wide as one person. Everyone had their recumbant bicycles in front of their bed (no one ever used their car). I had to use the restroom and I had to walk out of her apartment and down a hallway to a room where the door didn't go all the way to the floor or ceiling and the toilet faced the hallway - it was almost embarrassing to use. When I got back to the apartment I noticed a bathroom in the back, but I was told I couldn't use it because it was for residents only. Teresa was going to take me out on the town but she wasn't sure if I could handle the bicycle and she said she didn't have a car.

The dream changes to a voyage along a jungle river where natives are trying to sell me "tourist" items like exotic foods and fruits but I knew they were trying to oversell them and charge too much. It turned out I was just in a parking garage and not in a remote location.

Volleyball and Long Jump

I was a champion volleyball player. We had a spiking contest and I was doing really well except that I wasn't playing on a gym floor - it changed to sand volleyball and you couldn't jump the same in sand as on a hard floor. Then I was going to participate in a long jump contest where you used a pole to get a longer jump. There were judges there and everyone knew I was going to win.

The Past

I had just met a girl online that I instantly connected with for a friendship. She had the same things going on in her life that I had in mine. We lived in the same area and we decided to meet at a bar for lunch. Not a dive bar and not a high class bar, but a restaurant that also had a bar in it. I went to the bar and started running into all these people I used to know. I had to do some double-takes to make sure I recognized some of the people but everyone was there with open arms and warm greetings. My friend Austin, from LA, was there and he handed me a bunch of envelopes and some stamps, then he left. I opened one of the envelopes and it proposed marriage to me and that I was supposed to write my answer on an envelope and mail them all. I sat there, flabbergasted. I started to write "This is the most romantic thing that you can do, but I am already married and I have a family." I kind of kept replaying it in my head because I never finished my thought in the dream. Then I ran into another old friend and he dissed me completely - he wouldn't even talk to me - it was D.A. from high school. He said that I wasn't the person he thought I was - I was fat and ugly. Then I looked in a mirror and I had this really weird "bowl" type haircut, I was even shorter then I really am and weighed even more. Last but not least I ran into another guy, whose name I don't know, and put my arm around him and hesitently asked him if he wanted to have dinner later. He blatantly said "NO." I asked why and he said I knew. Typical conversation. Of course I said I didn't know and he said that he had already asked me out but that I didn't want to go hang out and eat dinner where you can drink and here I was in an establishment where you could do just that. I think we worked it out.

Cutting My Hair

So I've been thinking a lot about cutting my hair. I really want to. I thA ink I'm going to talk to my salon about doing a before/after session to see if I can get it cut for free - and donate the hair to Locks of Love - I hope it's long enough. But I'm in San Diego and I've been talking to my friend about cutting my hair. So last night I dreamt - I was at an event and one part of the event was all these stylists cutting hair and donating the money to a specific cause. (Don't ask me what the cause was.) A friend had just gotten his hair cut and it looked really good so I decided to do it, even though it was expensive. I stood in line and the girl I didn't know if I was supposed to go to Girl A or Girl B to go to and the one I went to said she only had one hour because she had to leave but she was spending the entire time talking to her mom about her mom's problem - the reason she had to leave early and then my friend that just got the good hair cut walked up and said that I couldn't see that girl and took me to someone else. That's when I woke up.

Friday's Dream - G's disobedience

I was at a party center with G and Little One and a woman who, though they weren't there, had grown children of her own. She was playing with us. Julie from Hillcrest C.B. was there too - I recognized her hair. The woman was driving us home and she let us out. G just ran across the street without looking. I was yelling at him....Julie was speeding up behind us and almost hit him. G turned around and was almost hit by a car going the other way. I spanked him and took everything I could think of away from him - computer, games, tv.....when I woke up. And when I was awake I was still mad at him.

Map Dot Fingerprint Dystrophy - Hope

So I saw Dr. Kitzmann today from the Cleveland Clinic who knows all about Map Dot Fingerprint Dystrophy and ABMD (Anterior Base Membrane Dystrophy) and, here's the catch, she was nice! She listened and had input and was super friendly. I just realized, looking back at my erosion journal, that I've had 12 erosions since the end of May. I wasn't sure if that was a lot and Dr. Kitzmann said it is and that, given that I've been religious with my Muro, it's time to take it to the next step. She was ready to do it then and there but we, together, decided that we'll wait for my next erosion once the new year starts (because that's when my deductible starts over again) and I'll come in on an emergency basis. She'll do an abrasion and micropuncture (stroml or stromo something - I don't the technical name for it) but that I don't need to do the lasik because my problem is very localized. She said that I'll have blurred vision for a few days and some discomfort and that I'll be seen by her for 3 months for follow ups and then a few more after that but that she thinks I'll be able to end my torture, that this will work for me. In the 5-10% chance it doesn't we'll try the procedure one more time.

I still have a long way to go. I have to wait for an erosion and then I'll have 3 months of daily antibiotic drops and contact bandages....and I'll hae to continue the muro until I'm sure that my eyes are lubricated enough on their own, but there seems to be an end in sight (no pun intended) even if it is a long-while off. YEA!

Israel

I was in Israel with a group trip. My kids were with me. We first stopped at a house where we were to become accustomed to the time change. We were all up and dancing, singing, eating. It was a ton of fun. I walked through the house looking for a restroom. While in there two men, soldiers, came in, talking to each other. They didn't know I was there. It turned out that I knew one of them from summer camp. (Note: The person in my dream wasn't someone I knew from summer camp, although I have met a lot of Israelis there.) I ran over to him and gave him a great big hug. He remembered my name and made fun of me for not remembering his. We were on a tour bus that had open windows and large flapping canvases and we stopped by a small stand to purchase trinkets. We were attacked by someone in the jungle (Israel - jungle - I know, I know). Then I couldn't tell if the soldier I knew was a good guy or a bad guy, though I'm thinking he was good.

The next stop on our tour was to a beach. It was dark and there wasn't a lot of sand. All of the sand there were in these large dunes and the waves were crashing, crashing very fast.

A Visit to the Hospital

So I had a rough night last night. I couldn't fall asleep, and then at 2 am G woke up and needed me - for all of 4 minutes, but a disruption nonetheless - and then at 6 am, a pain level 8 erosion from my Map Dot Fingerprint Dystrophy. My vision is still blurred and I'm exhausted, but I'm at work because I'm going out of town on Friday. So I definitely had a dream before my erosion and I was on the road to remembering it until I had my erosion. Here's my dream after my erosion (for all of 30 minutes I might have slept, but definitely long enough to dream):

I was at the hospital. I saw a relative, cousin or aunt, who was also being admmitted to the hospital, but I don't know for what. Dave was with me - being supportive. They put my relative and me in the same hospital room and my aunt B and cousin Emily came to visit us. All of a sudden I had to find out why Hulk (the wrestler) Hogan was choosing the musical path he was choosing. We had some starstruck people at the hospital want to stop by our room because of our affiliation with him. I was questioning him and we were all talking about it.

Gotta love the normalcy of the beginning of the dream to the "You're definitely in a dream" of the ending.

I'm thinking this was a sign that I should have my eyes checked again. I'm crossing my fingers that my boss can pull some strings with his ophthalmologist friend and that he actually knows something about Map Dot Fingerprint Dystrophy.

Rocky Horror Picture Show

I went to the Rocky Horror Picture Show. I wasn't dressed punk or goth, just like me, and I remembered all the words. The actors at the movie theater weren't wearing cotumes - they were just sitting in chairs and singing along. It was hard to tell who was who, it was hard to watch the movie and the actors at the same time, and it was hard to see my friends who were there. Next thing I knew, I was walking with my step-mom past a baseball game. There were all these teams in the bleachers, and each were wearing distinctive colors. I thought it would be fun to cheer for one of the teams, even if I didn't know who they were. I cheered for the blue team and the coach got really, really mad at me. Something bad had happened after that but I don't remember what it is.

Research Study

I found this study at http://cat.inist.fr/?aModele=afficheN&cpsidt=18265841

Can anyone tell me what PTK using an excimer laser with low pulse energy and low number of pulses means? I was told by one doctor, whose authority I would want a second opionion on, that I should have a procedure where a hypodermic needle punctures my membrane. Is this the same thing or different?

Purpose: Patients with comeal map-dot-fingerprint dystrophy suffer typically from recurrent corneal erosion, disturbed vision, or both. The purpose of this study was to assess the morphologic and functional long-term results of minimal invasive subepithelial phototherapeutic keratectomy (PTK) for corneal map-dot-fingerprint dystrophy. Methods: Of a total of 390 PTKs performed between October 1994 and January 2004, 15 PTKs on 15 eyes of 11 patients were included in this single-center study. All patients had symptoms of recurrent comeal erosion; in 12 eyes, reduced visual acuity was observed. The median duration of complaints was 18 months. Using 193-nm excimer laser (MEL 60/70; Carl Zeiss-Meditec), a manually guided spot profile was applied in 7 cases (pulse energy, 12 mJ; repetition rate, 2/s or 3/s; 189-425 pulses). In 8 cases, a scanning slit mode was chosen (intended ablation, 1 μm/scan; repetition rate, 20/s; 150-483 pulses). In each case, a broad deepithelialization of the Bowman layer was followed by application of defocused overlapping laser pulses. Results: Complete epithelial closure was achieved after an average of 3.5 ± 0.6 days (median, 3 days). The mean follow-up was 4.8 ± 3.0 years, with a maximum of 9.3 years. Best corrected visual acuity increased from 0.7 ± 0.26 preoperatively to 0.9 ± 0.16 postoperatively. The keratometric central power remained constant (preoperatively, 43.0 ± 1.6 D; postoperatively, 42.6 ± 1.0 D). The average keratometric astigmatism remained constant (1.3 ± 0.9 D, preoperatively; 1.0 ± 0.5 D, postoperatively). In the early postoperative stage, subtle superficial comeal opacities ("haze") were observed in 6 eyes (40%), being completely reversible during the follow-up in 5 cases. No recurrence of corneal erosion was observed during the follow-up. Asymptomatic dystrophic signs in the midperiphery became visible in 2 eyes 3 and 5 years after PTK. Conclusion: For corneal map-dot-fingerprint dystrophy, PTK using an excimer laser with low pulse energy and low number of pulses can be considered an effective and minimal invasive treatment modality to achieve a fast and durable epithelial closure, to prevent recurrent corneal erosions, and to increase visual acuity in most patients.

Torture

Dave and I were in a house and we were being tortured by a woman. She took hypodermic needles filled with we didn't know what and she stuck it into Dave. Then she forced him to drink a full glass of what looked like Pepsi with ice, but there was something else in it too. At first she just made me watch and then she stuck a needle in me as well. She tried to force me to drink the liquid but she tried too fast and it just poured all over. Dave had a butcher knife and I told him just to end it, to kill me, that I didn't blame him for it but that it would be better for us. He didn't do it because I had woken up.

A Great Vacation

Before my main dream I had a dream that Little One's head was in the microwave and G was closing the door - I was yelling at him to open it - open it. Just then Dave walked into the bedroom and I had woken up - it was weird.

I had to get to the airport. I was going to Las Vegas. I had taken a taxi, but had forgotten just about everything - my purse even. Traffic was awful since it was the day before Thankgiving. Traffic was a dead standstill and I didn't know how I was ever going to make my flight.

I flew to Vegas and met up with some old friends - Nancy Roberts was there along with a bunch of people from my past. It was the greatest time ever. We were having water gun fights in the hotel and going to classes. There was a guy there keeping a blog about everything. I knew I had to come back on Sunday and I was afraid I wasn't going to get everyone's contact info and not everyone was on FB. We were in the hotel room and David Siegel and a friend of his whom I knew walked in. He had a great big smile on his face. I asked about his sister, Jill. We were at a restaurant and Laura Dineen walked in with her two daughters and they were beautiful. I was at a class and there were 6 f us there, but I don't remember what the class was about. My friend from England was there as well. I didn't want it to end.

A Hawaiin Vacation

Dave and I were on vacation in Hawaii. We met some friends and we took a day-long hike through rainforests. We had to jump some huge waterfalls in order to get where we were going, one of which had a very unsure landing. I remember being afraid of the height but jumping anyway. Then I met my Aunt and Uncle (Bonnie and Ken) and we went on another hike and this time we had to walk up a steep rock slope and then go down the other side, which was just as steep and we were supposed to go head first, but I turned around because there was no way I was going head first.

Back to school

[NO PICTURE FITS HERE]

I was in college. I was 37, like I am, but I was in college with younger kids. I was taking notes on my yellow pad when I realized that everyone else had laptops. I kept walking in and out of classrooms and I was taking a literature class but didn't know exactly what time it started. I think I slept there and was looking for a place to wash up or change my clothes and the classroom was empty. The classroom was one of those large auditorium style lecture classrooms. Then G showed up and we were finding his class. He was in 1st grade but the first grade math was full and I didn't want him to take the class with the easier math because it would be too easy for him.

Then I was at my house and a gaggle girls, about 6-7 years old, came in to play. One of them was the neighbor girl but she was really shy. Then Kim K. showed up (my old next door neighbor whom I used to babysit for).

Next I was at a rehearsal dinner before a wedding. Everyone was wearing black and white but there was one person in the buffet line who stood out in terms of color, including her makeup and hair color.

[Note: In my mind, I think having the pad of paper and not a computer symbolizes I feel that I don't have what everyone else has - this dream might be a money-stress dream.]

Ghosts from the past

I was passing out mail down a street and all of a sudden my ex from 1990 Sean B. was there with one of his skinhead friends, one of the twins - can't remember his name. Sean had a pierced lip and his lip was cracked and bleeding a bit in the middle. At first I avoided him and then just didn't care. I passed right by him to deliver the mail and said "hey". He said "So, you want me just for my money, don't you." I didn't. He hugged me and said he was joking and that he learned that joke for me.

Plastic Paperclips

I was at work and I was going to get an envelope from my supply room. Someone had changed it and had reorganized it. Out of a 10 foot wall of supplies, 8 feet were taken up by party items like paper plates, curled ribbon for balloons, things you would find at a party store. The actual office items were in a 2' cabinet that was really long and tall and stacked so high to the top that you couldn't reach anything that you needed without having a step ladder and all the paperclips were replaced with those cheap plastic paperclips that you used once and then threw away because no one ever wants to use them again. And they got all excited about putting a picture frame in the door of the toilet stall which made no sense because the toilet was in the supply room so there was no privacy anyways (except for the walls of the stall). I got into a shouting match with the girl who changed the supplies around and I quit right there and then. I couldn't handle the paper clips.

My boss said that it's a control dream - I can see that.

I want to sleep

Saturday night I dreamed that I died. It was natural. I was surrounded by a lot of people and was in a classroom setting. Everyone who went there was going to die (well, of course, because in the end - doesn't everyone). I woke up as I was breathing my last breaths and was thinking, how does it feel to be dead. I didn't move a muscle, I was heavy, but my heart was still beating and I knew I wasn't dead.

Last night I had a chaotic dream. It kept me up all night and it was mostly random. A lot of voting was taking place. Different kinds of contests. Then I found myself a guest in a mansion. I was on a street that I wasn't even allowed to drive or park on. It was beautiful - museum-like with monstrous elephant and tiger sculptures in the yards. I was a guest and had entered into the house but I don't know what I was doing there, but there were a lot of dogs around.

No help today

The dream starts off in a Hebrew school. Dave is there and we're teaching a class, or trying to teach a class. We have no materials and the other teachers won't help. I distinctly remember a sign that had three English words on it and it was laminated and I couldn't figure out why it was laminated or why it was being used.

Then the dream switches to a walk to cure cancer. I went to the walk, but hadn't realized that it was a 5 day walk and I couldn't get the time off to do the walk. I wanted the "goody" bag and pilfered some of the items, including a hat. I started the walk with the people who raised money and we walked through a sushi bar and a loft until we took a break.

the diaper crisis

I stowed away with Little One on a plane to Europe. I found my brother there and he was getting ready for a birthday party. He decided that he wanted to go back home and I was trying to figure out how to stow away again so I didn't have to pay. Then I was in a contest trying to win diapers for Little One. I had won and the person who was running the contest couldn't find the diapers. She kept looking online and trying to purchase them but they were too expensive and she kept looking. I was in another building and there was an explostion in the store-front we had been in. I was claiming it wasn't us but Dave was standing there with a gun. Someone had planted it on him.

Rockets

I was at a home in a suburban neighborhood. There was a man shooting off rockets that were 10' x 4' and they would fly into the air and explode and send ash on everyone. Everyone watching loved it. He would hold the end and throw it up in the air. One of them didn't go as high as expected and was too low to the ground.

Then I was driving back to camp. I was a camper and there were other campers with me but I wasn't young. I was the age I am now. I was talking about how I missed my kids and the other campers were a little surprised. One girl was getting low blood sugar and we were lost. I drove by a carnival that was just setting up. They were giving the animals medicine. The cows were lined up and had to go up a ramp that had food at the end and they'd put the medicine in their hind end. The sheep were next to them, but they didn't have to go up a ramp. There was a lot of action going on - lots of people and things to see.

A Date

There was a play going on in a house - not your typical stage. There were 5 woman. Two were walking in front, one with a baby stroller and two walking behind. To move the passage of time, two of the women would walk back to another room and then come back into the main room. I have no idea what the play was about, but it was definitely about the passage of time. Then Dave and I were going on a date. There was an old cream colored convertible sitting outside of a mansion. We took a look at it and then went inside to finish getting ready and it started pouring - like the kind of rain where the heavens open up and poor buckets and buckets. It stopped raining, we wiped down the seats and we were on our way.

We were at a waterfall inside a cave. There was water rushing but as soon as you stepped foot into the water, the flow stopped and the wall in the back opened up to reveal treasures and gold.

Oh, and Dave said I woke up in the middle of the night and was telling him how I was talking to a cop. I have been talking in my sleep a lot lately.

Hallowen and an Affair

It was Halloween. Marylin and Uncle Ken came over to help out. We started eating dinner and Uncle Ken had brought pumpkin bread and some other type of bread, both in aluminum toss-away pans. They started trick-or-treating without me. Marylin and Dave took the boys. We were trying to pass out candy, but we kept not turning the porch light on so the kids kept going past our house, even though we were standing outside. Marylin brought Little One home and I was supposed to switch off with Dave to take G around, but they forgot.

Switch to inside a house. There was a guy and he was hitting on me. I liked him back. We had a good conversation and started kissing. We didn't do more than that, kiss, but we spent all night together. Dave was sleeping in the other room and I didn't feel awkward at first, but I did after a while. The guy started looking around my room - he jumped up and messed up some clothes and he wouldn't tell me why. I was starting to get OCD on him taking everything out of place so he stopped and told me that he just wanted to learn more about me. I started putting our shirts back - he had messed up Dave's pile more than mine - when I remembered I had some items in the dryer. I went to the dryer to get them out and forgot that I hadn't taken them out of the white garbage bags that they were in. There were about 5 garbage bags filled with still-wet clothes. There were a few bras and I was relieved when everything was still wet and the underwire in my bras weren't ruined.

Another New Job - Again

I received a call from MH, an old law firm I used to work at. They offered me a lot of money and I took the job in a heartbeat. I had to take a bus to work - downtown. I was sitting at my desk and I didn't have a computer and I didn't know who I was working for. I had nothing to do all day. I kept second-guessing why I took the job when I hated it so much before. When 5:00 came, I left and didn't turn back. I called JB and told him I wanted my job back. He couldn't figure out why I left when my co-worker was on maternity leave and I hated MH before. We were sitting eating lunch, his son was with him, and MH called to see why I had left. He was going to sell me back to MH - he said "How can I make money off of you if I let her come back." MH didn't understand why I quit so soon.

Water Balloons

I was in a hotel with some friends. I think there was a wedding that I was going to. I was giong to lunch or dinner but instead we ended up having a water balloon fight.

Sukkot

It's Sukkot (a harvest festival where you "party" in a tent-like structure that has an open roof where you can see the stars). I go to an amusement park and bring my own food and the staff helps me find a Sukkah where I can eat. Later in the day I find some friends who are also looking for a Sukkah but, in the building where we're at, they only have a small merry-go-round (kind of like the one in the ice cream parlor at Malley's in N. Olmsted.) They take off everything but the polls and we use the polls for our Sukkah. There's some children there and the mother is off to the side and she looks like she's sleeping. I go over to her and she says that she's not asleep. I pick her up. She has a genetic disorder that leaves her like that and she's a spokesperson for this disorder.

The escape

I was at a house and I was being held captive. I wasn't kidnapped, but I wasn't allowed to leave. I had to escape and some people saw me escaping, but they were helping me. There were two houses close to each other. One was in a valley and the other was on a hill. I had to get to the house on the hill and I had to be in the air to do this - weather a zip line, or floating I'm not quite sure.

Another New Job

It was the first day working at a new lawfirm. I was at my desk and people kept coming over to my desk but I wasn't allowed to ask any questions and I wasn't allowed to walk around. They didn't even give me a tour (it was 3 floors of the building) or tell me who I was working for. People got demerits for walking around the office. There were places to buy lunch right next to my cubicle so I saw people in line for lunch, but that was it.

My boys - So Independent

G and L were going to Geauga Lake, but back when it was still Geauga Lake and not Geauga Lake owned by Cedar Point or Geauga Lake the water park only. I was sending them on their own and G was going to watch Little One. I was making sure they were wearing tennis shoes because their Crocs would come off the roller coasters.

Switch to my backyard. Some teenage boys were cleaning up our backyard. They were getting the big branch out but Dave had already taken all the branches, cut them to uniform size and stacked them neatly all along the side of our garage.

Note: I wish that had really happened when I had woken up this morning. But Dave did get the majority of it cleaned up while I was at temple and I finished when we got back.

Pain in my eye

My eye had been hurting all day. It was my good eye, not the one with "Map Dot Fingerprint Dystrophy" or "Recurrent Corneal Erosions" or whatever you want to call it. I was helping some friends with their homecoming to a new house. They weren't there yet, but I was setting everything up for them. It was a large, warm, open room and I was setting up flowers or linen or something. I took a look at my eye and realized that I had a staple in it, on the white part, not the iris, and I couldn't just take the staple out because the white part of my eye had started growing over the staple. The Olsen Twins came into the house and were sympathizing with me. I couldn't remember the whole name, Map Dot....but they finished the name for me.

Dinner Date with Cake

I was at a dinner party with some friends and D was there. It was a pseudo date as I had just broken up with my boyfriend and so I was available to date. There were about 6 people there in all. I thought the evening was going well until D invited me to something else, but put a caveat on it - to not wear such revealing clothes. (I had been wearing a shirt that was a bit low-cut and showed off some cleavage). I was appalled because I thought my shirt wasn't that low-cut and we were all grownups - no kids around. I had replayed the scene in my head and realized that his body language kept moving away from me. So I was offended and got up and stormed off. I didn't dress like that all the time. I walked to the rapid station and was going to take the rapid home. He tried to get me to stay, but I just kept walking. He tried following me and eventually caught up to me with his friends and they brought dessert, cake, to eat. They had already eaten cake at the dinner but they had brought entirely new cakes to eat.

Payday - NOT

My boss, BJO, walked down the hall and handed me a bunch of checks that were all for very little amounts of money. He said that they all decided that my second job [yes, I have a small second part-time job] paid me too much and that all I was going to get was $7 per hour, but in check form I'd get slightly over $11 to compensate for taxes. This wasn't even the boss for my second job. I walked right up to JB, my second job boss, and quit on the spot. I told him it wasn't worth it.

[Note: Dave said that I was talking in my sleep and I was mad about something. Of course, it doesn't help that the rain on our gutters was so loud it made everyone, well, Dave and me, wake up.]

I was with my brother and we were judging a singing competition, but all the singers were awful - they were off key and singing in foreign languages. We realized that we were not supposed to be judging the singing but we were judging the song itself because these people wrote the songs but it was impossible to judge since we didn't understand the lyrics and couldn't follow a melody.

Then the scene switches to a movie-like scene. I'm working at a cafeteria or some place that has a kitchen. I took a person and chopped him up, and then I was found out. I had a bottle of pills and I took all the pills to kill myself but I heard someone say that if I took too many I would just throw them up. The movie switches from the end back to the beginning. There's a boy who likes my twisted, demented me and I couldn't figure out why. I'm back in the kitchen and I chop someone up. Then I take G and chop him up. He's in two pieces and I'm trying to hide him under the meat but even though he's in two pieces he's still able to scream. People are around me but they don't realize what I'm doing. I want to take the pills again.

(Note: I woke up and the first thing I did was apologize to G that I chopped him up and tried to eat him for an appetizer. He thought it was funny.)

Skydiving Japan

I was a professional skydiver in Japan. They loved me there. I dove into some water and then had to walk back home. I had to pay a toll and rode an escalator and wanted to keep some of the Japanese change for my kids. I then walked by a dock and was deciding whether to walk the bridge to China or take the Jet Express. I kept saying "Turner and Hooch, Turner and Hooch."

A House and Some Chocolate

I was at a friend's new house. It was a very big, rich-style house, but the bedrooms were extremely odd. The house was extremely long and there was a very small room off the middle of the living room that was about the size of my childhood bedroom and it was painted a shade of maroon and a shade of tan, which was a very strange combination. The master bedroom was about 10 feet from the garage door and completely on the opposite end of the house as everything else - kitchen, bathroom, etc.

Then I walked outside and there was a little pattiserie. They were about to close but I was hungry so I found a tort, which I usually hate, but it was so moist and delicious. Next thing I know all these fraternity guys are inside the shop having a food fight and literally there was nothing left in the bakery that was untouched.

My dream last night was mostly about G. I don't remember most of it but it had a very overwhelming G theme. Then it switched to.......

I was on a mountaintop and there were delegations from different countries - 4 people per country. People were riding around on horses and we were trying to solve some type of world-wide crisis. There were people out to get me - either because they liked me or they hated me, but I couldn't tell which.

New Job

I was working at a new job. I was on the field of a Brown's game and I kept following the players wherever they were on the field. I was blocking the people who were sitting behind me, but I didn't care. I had to hand things to them and tell them what to do (and no, I wasn't a coach).

Trying to Get Away

I had remembered the first part of my dream when I woke up - I've actually been dreaming all week but haven't blogged. I've been so tired lately that my brain isn't functioning to full capacity. My brothers were in town this weekend and I've been up early and up late and going all day long in the middle - not to mention all the stress that family brings (not my brothers - but my mother). Anyway, I don't remember the first part, even though I did until just about an hour ago. So here's the part I remember.

I was walking down a path. It was narrow. There was a large woman working in her field and she had two dogs on leashes, but the leashes came out onto the path. I had stopped to talk to her, thinking I'd be friendly, but it turns out she didn't want me so close to her property. I had asked her why her dog's leashes were so long as this was such a narrow path there was no way around the vicious dogs, but she just pointed to a larger path a bit away and said I should have been walking there instead - I hadn't even seen that path before.

Then the lady turned into a chiropractor. She had an odd bedside manner. She was still unpleasant. I was trying to get away from a guy and I was in a mall but I knew how to get away. There was a fountain and the fountain let out an opening down the way. I knew that people went scuba diving there, like cave diving, but I didn't have any dive equipment with me. I held my breath and stuck my head under but all I could see was a small hole of light and no way out. I knew there was a way but I was going into the unknown and didn't know how long I'd have to hold my breath for.

Actually, the part I thought I forgot was the lady on the path. I guess my brain is still somewhat with me.

Dinner

I was at a restaurant with some friends and I was so exhausted that I kept falling asleep. I went back with some other friends, three black women, everyone in the restaurant was black. They were waiting for an elderly woman who was celebrating her birthday. I kept staring off into space and zoning out. My friends definitely noticed. Two of the girls started arguing about something. The woman came into the restaurant and was greeted with lots of hugs and kisses and gifts. After that, they pushed the tables out of the way and started singing and dancing. I was backing up, but there was a man behind me and he wanted to start two-stepping around the restaurant.

I was with a person who was going to see his future self. He was a messiah of sorts and people would flock to see him. I don't know if he was going to outer space to see his future self but he definitely had a trip planned. I was right in the middle of everything but not putting myself on the line. I was good friends with the guy everyone wanted to be good friends with. We saw Dave being pulled over by the cops. Later that day we were sitting on Belvoir Blvd. and we saw a person getting pulled over and it was a little green car and I was hoping it wasn't Dave, but there was his white shirt that he wears in the summer and he was getting pulled over yet again. He didn't seem worried because I don't think he got a ticket that first time, but he got pulled over twice in the same day.

Note: There was so much going on in the dream having to do with the "messiah" type person and all the people and events surrounding him but when I woke up - the more important aspect of the dream was Dave's speeding tickets. I woke up and instantly told him to slow down - he knew what I dreamt.

Here's what a ticket means from the dream dictionary: "Ticket To see a ticket in your dream, signifies the start of a new endeavour. You have decided on your path and goals in life. To dream that you lose a ticket, denotes confusion and ambiguity in the direction of your life."

Bunnies

Someone had given me a bunny. I was trying to figure out how to take care of it and I was walking around this town asking people. I had shoes of 2 different sizes, one high heel and one low heel and I remember thinking that I needed to change my shoes, but I liked it this way. I saw my old friends Josh and Missy Marks in a grocery store, but they didn't have any answers. Josh gave me a hug, but it was a short hug and felt weird. I didn't know what to feed it. I put in some food and was looking for animal pellets, but I couldn't find anything. I was looking for the top of a box so I could put the bunny in it with some newspaper. I put the bunny in Little One's room and kept closing the door. Dave kept asking me if the door was closed so he couldn't get out.

I remember a big chasm, but now I'm not sure how it fit in with the dream.

Dave said that I woke up in the middle of the night and reached out my hands. I sort of remember this and remember thinking that I was trying to stop one of my kids from doing something or trying to catch them.

[Note: I had a stressful night last night with extended family stuff going on so I don't know if my dream relates to my kids (which would kind of make sense) or if it relates to all the stress that was floating in my head before I went to sleep.]

A Nap Dream

Yea - Nap today!!

I was with a school class, maybe 3 or 4 students, and we were walking in the woods and we had to walk next to a lake on a narrow stone wall. We walked to the bottom - a dead end - and we were looking in the water for the fish. A man joned us, but I had the feeling he wasn't supposed to be there.

The dream changed to being in a video game. I had just won a level and all of a sudden it switched to another harder level and I found myself having to blast Stormtroopers. (Again, with the stormtroopers). I turned the game off and woke up.

A Party

I was going to a party and Teresa's brother was there (although I've never met her brother and I know it wasn't really him). He was the host and everyone wanted to know him. We met and he took a liking to me. We talked all night. It might have been New Year's Eve because everyone wanted to stay out really late. I was getting really tired and by about 11 I wanted to rest my eyes. I was watching myself sleeping being watched by this guy.

When I woke up he was in a costume and he was staring at me but when I saw his eyes they looked strange and odd and scared me a bit. He was told he was scaring me and he backed off.

Of Mice....and Ants

Note: Anyone who knows me, knows my dislike of ants (in the house anyway) and how freaked ot I get when I see one indoors.

I was in my house and there was a mouse on the edge of a windowsill. It looked like he was nibbling Cap'n Crunch or dog food or some kind of pellet. I left it alone thinking he's not doing anything wrong. Then Dave yelled at me furiously. Why did I let it go? I need to get rid of it. The mouse left and I closed the window. Next thing I know the window is ajar (if windows can be ajar) and there were 2 mice. I put on rubber gloves and took them outside and threw them. I wanted to flail them across the yard, but I didn't want to hurt them so I just got them far enough from the house. Then I was thinking I should have turned the rubber gloves inside out and thrown them and then it would have been harder for them to get back. Dave yelled again. I guess there was some kind of fear of disease, etc.

At this point I still don't remember what ants have to do with the dream, but I'm absolutely positive there were one or two walking around and just freaking me out.

I go back to the house and the window is wide open and the mice are back, in full force. I freak out, Dave freaks out. It's so icky and they are so mad at us.

Here's some possible interpretations - taken from the Free Dream Dictionary:
2. Being frightened by a mouse signifies social embarrassment coming up, and if the dreamer wants to avoid it, he or she can look to other symbols in the dream. 3. Mice scurrying around freely, wreaking havoc in their surroundings, indicate family squabbles ahead.

Hmmm.....

A relationship

I'm on a basketball court with the star player of the basketball team. He's almost 2 feet taller than me, but I'm holding my own shooting hoops. There are some guys down on the other end playing, but we don't pay attention to them.

Then we go into a tea room / boutique area of the school and it's the end of the day and it's closing down. There are a couple of older ladies (not elderly, but in their 50s or 60s) who don't get out in time and we're all stuck in there. We're not there to steal anything, but that's what the ladies are doing. They are looking at everything and this basketball player and I are trying to keep them from doing it. We keep trying to lock the door to the boutique, but they just won't go away. It seems we keep going in circles, from the tea room to the boutique. These two ladies are always on our tail and we can't get rid of them.

We get hungry and decide to go across the street to the seafood restaurant there. We're on the way over there, but I get sidetracked to audition for an SCA-type event. I dress up as my gypsey and stand in front of the room. There are three tables shaped like a u. They start laughing at me and saying that gypsey's are so outdated. I bring out my candles but tell them it's been a decade since I've danced.

Naked

E - you planted this in my head - another time I was naked, in my dream....

I was arrested for something. I had to strip down in front of everyone and wasn't allowed to wear clothes, but I don't know what I did wrong.

Then the dream shifted to walking through a school hallway and a show was being taped. These two girls finagled me into helping them prepare food. It had a "Asian" flare but it was mini cheesecakes and oreos, 4 to a box.

G's dream - Flying Things

There were things flying around and they were everywhere, coming in my door. They were even right by my face. THey were thousands of them. They were having a party, dancing, I didn't hear the music.

Bachelorette Party

I had a dream that I was at the Red Lobster at S's bachelorette party but Little One was there with me. He was acting up and running away. Everyone was sitting at this long table and staring at me.

Did he cheat?

Dave went to a party and I stayed at home. Everyone was dressed up and he was dressed as a storm trooper. A girl came onto him and he started kissing her. He didn't care about anything else.

G's Dream - Bees

G woke up in the middle of the night and screamed out Mom. Thankfully, Dad woke up and found out what was wrong. He had a dream that a giant bee came to get his little brother. This is not the first time he's had a dream like this. This was his last dream. Of course, I can imagine that bees are one of his "monsters." He's scared of them. He keeps saying it's the one thing about summer that he hates and the reason he likes winter is because there's no bees.

An Adventure

I was in a car with my sister-in-law Sarah. She was on the phone. We were on the freeway and a big truck cut us off and pinned us between himself and the median. We went spinning out of control, but she wasn't phased at all and we ended up just continuing to drive.

I was on the phone with Noel and was walking on a narrow path with G. We were in a desert region. All of a sudden, G was up ahead a bit standing on sand and his feet were sinking. It was quicksand. "Get out quick, back up" I had to fly through the air to pull him out and we almost lost his shoes, but we had found them. As I was looking for my shoes, G started wallking toward the wal-mart that had a waterpark and rollercoaster. The same rollercoaster / waterpark was in an older dream of mine, but this one was on the wrong side of the road.

I won a car

There was a gentlemen who befriended me, or I started to work with him and I thought it kind of odd but didn't really worry about it. Then, two days later, I went to a seminar. I was sitting in the back row. After a few speakers this man stood up and he pointed right at me in the back row. I stood up and said "I knew it," like there was something up, but it turned out I won a car - a Honda Odyssey - and 2 years worth of gas (which was a few hundred thousand dollars). I should have known it was a dream when the car came in a box and I had to blow it up. Someone tried to get me to buy something, but I said I had to use the money to pay down some debt first. Also, I couldn't drive a few hundred miles for a vacation because that would use up most of my 2 years of free gas in one shot.

Then - Little One woke up at 4 and cried and cried, so my dream changed....

I was watching a reality show like Project Runway and was watching all these crazy outfits made. My babysitter was there and she kept moving a baby pool from one corner of the yard to another, following the shade. I couldn't understand how she did it without ripping the bottom of the pool, but it worked. Of course, it worked better if you took the kids out first. Then, back to the fashion show, we were all sitting around a table and everyone started levitating as part of the trick. One crazy costume looked like an upside down cake but made out of some red metal material. The host didn't believe everyone could levitate so he started running around the table like a maniac screaming "it's impossible." Of course, he was a short, dwarf-sized naked man who was so hairy it was gross.

The Family Business

This dream was from Tuesday night so I've lost some of the details:

I went to work for my family - my Dad's side of the family. My Aunt and Uncle were there along with two of my cousins and my one cousin's wife. We worked out of their house and everything was white. I had to fill out subpoenas and I should have known what to do, but they just kept yelling at me. They kept saying I was doing it wrong, but wasn't given the chance.

Last night I was tossing and turning all night thinking of my new boss's health information and all the ways I messed up his files. It just kept me up all night long and I was picturing bills and Explanations of Benefits all night long.

Note: Both of these probably have to do with my new responsibility of a side job I am doing for someone and the stress of starting something new, as opposed to knowing everything I need to since I've been at my present job for 5 years. I hate that newness feeling. I know once I get in the groove it will all be ok, but I hate this newness feeling.....

Thunder Canyon

I dreamt I just met someone and was getting married, but we had to go down Cedar Point's Thunder Canyon. The ride started out on the top and you went down the hill to get splashed and there was no way out. I wasn't allowed to not ride the ride - I had to do it. The ride didn't quite look like the one at Cedar Point, but I got just as wet.

Note: Maybe I was worried about it raining today and possibly biking to work. I started to, I dropped Little One off at the babysitters and then....went home. Thank goodness or I WOULD have gotten soaked.

Weekend Dreams

I dreamt I had a conversation with B. Obama. I was running for office in the County where I live, some kind of fiscal officer, and I didn't feel up to the task. Maybe he was giving me a pep talk but I don't really remember what our conversation was about - it was definitely not about his potential presidency.

I was driving down a street that was really busy and had a big hill. I had to turn right. I went scuba diving, but it wasn't really scuba diving - a guy was running a tourist attraction. It was enclosed and you breathed air from a tube that was hooked to the surface and you just swam around under water. When we got out I asked how much it was and the guy said, oh $1 for each of you so $10-15, but Dave thought that was too cheap for what it cost the guy to run the equipment so he gave him $150. I was mad at that, but Dave didn't care. Then I was walking around a mall, but more like the mall at a casino so there weren't too many stores, but there was a lot of beautiful decor and I was wearing an evening gown getting ready to go to dinner. (Maybe I'm thinking second honeymoon ---- hmmmm......)

Note: Maybe both of these dreams about money stem from the fact that Dave and I were fantasizing about what we would do if we won the lottery. Oh that would be fun.

Crazy Cakes

So my son woke up at 5 am crying. I brought him into bed with me and he was sleeping nicely until I had to move because I can't sleep on my back and then he wouldn't go back to sleep and he wanted to go downstairs and I said "no way" and he cried in his crib which meant that I didn't sleep for at least 1 1/2 hours this morning so I'm tired.

And I'm addicted (for the time being) to a game called Crazy Cakes on Pogo. So as I'm laying there unable to sleep I just keep seeing little pastries and having to decide what flavor they need to be but I can't get to them and I lose the game because I CAN'T MOVE.

I'm so tired. I don't know how I'm going to make it through the day. He's so lucky he's cute or I might have had to murdalize him.

G's dream - school

G woke me up this morning telling me about his dream: His school was in a treehouse. There were big buzzing bugs that had big stingers on the front of their heads but he knocked it down and didn't get stung.

My New Job No. 2

I had a second job. I was selling custom-printed media - envelopes, mailers, etc. I was going to a mall and doing cold-calls. (Note: I hate it when they come to my place of business so this is kinda ironic.) I went to one store and then to a second. I was wearing a blue shirt and thought I looked good until I looked in a mirror and realized that the shirt was see-through and you could definitely see my white bra. I was in a club of some kind and it hit me all the custom flyers I could make for them to increase their business. They could have specialty-themed nights and really get a lot of people into their club. I knew one of the guys working there from high school. I kept having to sell the items over and over. I had a sheet of people I already did business with and copies of their cards to show.

Babies

I dreamt my co-worker had her baby, or was having her baby. Her water broke and she went into labor but was already at the hospital. She had someone with her to take care of her. She hadn't called her boyfriend yet, but did later on when he was brought by his Dad. I stayed there as long as I could, but had to go home to my kids.

The Mansion

I was in my Baubie and Zayde's house. It was a mansion and it was huge. The artwork came to life. A boy was talking to me and following me around the hallway. I was walking in a store looking for a chair for G. I found a kid's chair and it was 2x more expensive then an adult chair but I bought it anyway. I was walking down the hall and the entire hallways was pink marble. I found a room at the end of a hall with a tv the size of a small movie theater. It was my grandparents' room. I was trying to bathe little one but the shower kept going on the carpet, it wasn't enclosed. I asked my brother to help out because I couldn't figure it out.

G's Nightmare

I had another erosion with my map dot fingerprint dystrophy this morning. I had a small one on the fifth of July, but this one was a doozy (pain being a 9) - and still hurting 2.5 hours later. The pain is different with the muro 128, not as sandy, but more of an intensely dry feeling. I think this is because of how much I was awake last night and not just keeping my eyes closed.

2 am: G called out "Mom, can I come in your bed?" "No." "Come sleep with me." (fine) It turns out he saw flying things and colors in his room, oh, and extinct things. There was something in the hallway. I slept with him for a bit and went back to bed. A few minutes later I hear it again so I have him come into my bed. He falls asleep. At 3 I wake up and take him back into his bed. The weight of his sleeping body was comforting next to me and in my arms as I was carrying him back to bed but he keeps me awake and I get no sleep.

He remembers the flying things this morning. Nothing to do except help him find coping mechanisms.

Now, if I can only figure out why Little One says "Scared" when I put him down to bed every night.

Crack and Juvie

This was a third person dream:

There were three girls in a car and when they got pulled over they had to figure out what to do with the crack they just smoked. Obviously, they went to jail but one girl went to juvie. It was very strict and the halls were twisty and turny and every other door was locked to prevent running away. Someone helped the one girl run away, but she was caught. She ran away a second time, and this time actually made it out with the aid of a volunteer at the center. There wasn't a lot of supervision, it looked more like a middle school.

I think I had the part about the bus because Little One is amazed with them right now.

There was a bus, and it was flying with flames or through flames to another part of an island. No one saw it until it landed, but it was an awesome sight. There was a dog who was getting married and going down a really steep slide. I had a job, catering or selling something. I was in a room talking to someone and got mad at them because they weren't treating me well. I gave her a piece of my mind. It turned out that it was my business partner and my next client. I had to eat humble pie but I insisted that I should go still even though everyone else thought I should stay back. It turned out it was a good thing because the lady had apologized to me and said that she was in the wrong.

My New Boyfriend/Job

My neighbor (not my real neighbor, though his profession is right) professed that he liked me. He wanted to be my boyfriend. I agreed, but I kept asking him why he used to hate me and now he wanted to be my boyfriend. He was nervous and shy and didn't want to tell me. I told him I would be his boyfriend but that I had to go to the prom with another boy I had already asked, and he had to just deal with it. He was crying a bit and sad that I was still going with this other guy, but I said that a promise is a promise. I also kept telling him that he needs to talk to me. It was very sweet, really. We both worked at the police station. It was a new job for me. I had to buzz people in and as I was writing checks I kept forgetting to write paychecks.

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Waking Up A Lot

Last night I was waking up a lot. I had a lot of eye dryness and I kept feeling the need to blink. I remember the end of my dream: I was cleaning out my living room (Note: I really need to do this) and was putting all the toys we owned in a big box that had compartments to give to a friend of mine. Then I was sitting at a picnic table. My step-mom was there along with Paul L., the director of a band I used to be in, and we were all chatting. My step-mom turned to me and started talking to me about her end-of-life options and, not that she's close to the end or anything, but she wanted someone to know about them. Then I was walking and in a really big truck was my old boss, Bob F. I went up to him and we slapped "five" and then I realized it was him and didn't really want to talk but since I had just seen him at The Melting Pot, we started to talk about it, until I was interrupted.